73 days to go: my personal vision quest – part 1

The hand of Spirit guides my life in such strange and beautiful ways.

The next day, after I led a group into the rainforest, on a 1-day quest, quite unexpectedly I returned to the same spot by myself to spend a couple of nights in solitude.

It is a common practice in many traditions to share the visions received and lessons learned with the rest of the community. In that way, the vision is brought forth into the material world to manifest.

So that is what I’m doing now.

As mentioned in my previous post (Vision Quest), this has been part of my spiritual practice and my life for almost 30 years. Recently it has become even more intense and powerful.

In this case, something unexpected came up that enabled me to take a  couple of days to get out of the city and take some time for myself. It was a true blessing.

So I returned to this sacred part of El Yunque that I had been to many times before. It was such short notice, that I did not have time to find a tent, a sleeping bag or even any food. That’s ok though. I am going on a vision quest. I don’t need food or water. I have a blanket and know of a place to give me shelter from the rains, which are common and can be torrential at times.

My good friend Carlos was able to pick me up and take me there. It’s about an hours drive from San Juan, and I arrived at about 8:30pm on Friday night. Don Basilio and his wife Blachie were not home to open the gate for me, so I had to hike up a steep, muddy trail to gain access to the rainforest. Another 25 minutes of  hiking brought me to a long abandoned hacienda way up on the mountain, where I had spent many nights before. it looks to have been built in the mid 1900’s, then abandoned perhaps 20 or 30 years ago. It has been gutted and nothing remains but the bunk beds that are fixed to the floor. The jungle is encroaching and slowly reclaiming what was once someones home. The roof is falling in, in places, but there is still a section that has not rusted through and can provide shelter from the tropical rains. This would be my home for the next few nights.

The trail to the Hacienda was overgrown and difficult to find at night, but somehow I managed. By the time I found it, cleared the space and set up camp, it was approaching 10pm, and I was considering just climbing into bed and calling it a night. But this was my vision quest, and there was work to be done.

I had brought my most powerful crystals and stones. Soon the medicine wheel was complete and I was ready to begin my meditation. I always begin with the same core meditation that I have been practicing in some form or another since I was 20 yrs old. Visualizing myself sitting upon the surface of the earth, I use my mind and breath to connect to the core of the earth, draw the powerful life force energy up into my body, filling my chakras, then send it up into a star at the center of our galaxy. I then bring the fire energy down from the star, through my body & chakras, and send it down into the core of the earth, giving the mother an injection of pure pranic energy from the heavens. The stones and crystals of the medicine wheel also help me to bring in the energy from the air and water, which is very pure & potent in a place like El Yunque.

All of that elemental energy comes together in my Hara. My belly Chakra: Svadhisthana. From there, I begin Bhastrika Breath, or  Breath of Fire to build the energy. When it is stoked and intensified enough, I engage Maha Bandha  the three body locks used commonly in Kundalini Yoga to contain, focus & purify energy in the body. Then I bring all of that concentrated prana from all of the elements up my spine to the Ajna Chakra (3rd eye), and send it out in a series of prayers to the universe:

1) Love, Thanks and Gratitude to every one and every thing in all of creation. Thank you for the part you play in the great web of life.

2) A prayer sending divine love, comfort and healing to everyone I have ever known and ever will know in my existence.

3) Tree of Life Prayer, where I visualize my life as a great tree. My birth is at ground level and the end of my life is at the very top of the tree. My current position is about halfway up. I build the prana in Svadhisthana with bhastrika breath, then send the energy up the trunk, all the way to the top of the tree, to the point where my life on earth ends. In this way I project my consciousness forward in time to the point of my death, which I face with my eyes wide open and heart filled with love and longing to finally be freed of this dense body and reunite with my Divine Beloved. There is no fear whatsoever. Only intense joy and love permeating every cell of my being. But before I depart, I ask one final thing of my maker: to send down a beam of pure love and light down the trunk on my tree, filling my past selves with a great love, comfort and confidence that all will be well, all is well and in perfect divine order. I feel this now in my current self, but also all the times in my past where I struggled in fear and pain. When I was a young man, a teenager, a child and even an infant with so much fear and helplessness. When that wave of divine love washes over me, I cease my struggling, relax, take a deep breath and smile. I feel safe and secure. Wrapped in a warm blanket of love, confident that I will be ok and looking forward to a great future.

This was how my quest began. It only gets better from there.

To be continued…


74 Days To Go: Swadhistana and the Medicine of Guilt

The multidimensional aspects of chakras.

According to different practices they are, also, associated with colors since the different frequencies they vibrate with. Swadhistana or Water chakra is about feeling and sexuality, it deals with pleasure, and is related to orange color.  Is also the chakra that deals with creativity.

When it is open, your feelings flow freely, your canvas is opened, your creativity and sexuality flow organically.

LAYER: it’s said that is blocked by guilt.

Medicine of Guilt

And what is guilt but a constant reminder of how wrong we have done or how wrong we are. Is like our whole life seems to be made of sins. How can we live joyously? It becomes impossible to delight in life. We become heavy, loaded. Guilt sits on our chest like a rock, crushing us. How can we dance? How can guilt dance? How can guilt sing? How can guilt love? How can guilt live?

Now, look at all the guilt you’ve burdened yourself with. What do you blame yourself for?

If we have wronged another, or gone against our own truth, then of course we will feel bad.

Accept the reality that things happen and that there’s a reason for Life to unveil its mysteries through absolutely everything. Do not dwell on guilt, do not let it cloud and poison your energy.  If you are to be a light in your world, you need to forgive yourself. You are absolutely okay as you are, and it is absolutely natural to go astray from time to time. Just learn from it, move on, and use the lesson to make things right this time, be born again from your own lessons! This is your opportunity!

Also inspired by Guilt: Osho Zen Tarot.

75 days to go: Vision Quest

Traditionally, a vision quest is a common rite of passage in most native cultures around the world. As such, it can help the transition from childhood (or immaturity) into adulthood (maturity) by helping one to understand who they really are and what their life purpose is. It is also used later in a person’s life. Anytime one feels lost or in need of direction or guidance.

Often it is done in a secluded place, in nature, where one can tap into the powerful forces of the Earth and other elements to help on their quest.

What is sought, is a vision providing answers for some of the core questions of life: Who am I? Why am I here? What is my purpose in life and how can I achieve it?

Ultimately, the source of the answers is the Source of Creation, ie: Creator (or God).

Depending upon the culture and the practice, it can last anywhere from one to four days. It usually includes prayer, fasting and meditation. It is understood, universally, that these are the most powerful ways to go beyond the veil of the material world and gain access to the wisdom and vision of the spirit realm, where the answers to all questions exist. Sometimes the aid of helper plants is also enlisted: Peyote, Mushrooms, Ayahuasca, etc.

“Though the Vision Quest is associated with Native Americans traditions – it is practiced all over the world. As an expression of the archetypal “Hero’s Journey,” the vision quest has been enacted in religious pilgrimages, mythological tales (including the story of the search for the Holy Grail), and our own daily pursuit of truth and purpose. Today, there are companies that sponsor these journeys. They provide a wilderness area in which it is to occur, and they give instructions and guidance before and after the event. It might take a day, a week, a month – whatever is necessary to complete the transformation and get the answer one seeks.” http://www.crystalinks.com/visionquest.html


We are living in an age now, where the wisdom and practices of indigenous cultures are spreading and gaining popularity in modern societies around the world.

This is because we are all spiritual beings, and as we reach the end of the Piscean Age, many souls are awakening to the fact that material life without a strong spiritual connection & purpose is empty, meaningless and ultimately unfulfilling. So they are looking for answers, and this is a way to find answers that has been tried and proven for thousands upon thousands of years.

My personal practice

I have been on many vision quests in my life, beginning as a teenager, over 30 yrs ago. Some guided by Shamans or teachers, but most have been inspired by inner guides: Guardian Angels or Spirit Guides. A few have been up to 4 days, but many are just one or two days. Always I pray & meditate. Sometimes I fast. Sometimes I do an overnight vigil without sleep. Sometimes I work with helper plants. It all depends how I am guided, and what is required. This has become a regular practice in my life.

I have noticed that as we come closer to the end of the cycle, life becomes more intense and my spiritual processes more powerful. It is said that the energy of the earth is “quickening”. This means that the vibrational frequency is raising. As a result, it takes less time to accomplish even greater results. Something that may have taken 4 days in past times can now be achieved in 4 hours – or less, if one is open – and capable of processing great transformations in a short time. That is a skill acquired through years of practice. Or a gift bestowed upon those who are ready.

The calling to guide

Several years ago, during a meditation on Lake Michigan, in Wisconsin. I was called on to guide others through this process.

In fact, I have already been doing that for many years, in a way, with my healing work. In my massage/energy healing sessions, I help people to let go of their stress, pain and fear so that they can open up to the divine vibrations of love and healing that exist all around us, at all time. When that happens, they are open to all sorts of blessings and guidance from the spirit realm, and that only takes 90 minutes.

So now I take people out into nature and teach them how to tap into the spiritual energy that exists there and how to interpret the signs and messages that they receive. We all know the saying “God works in mysterious ways”. So the answers can and often do come in all sorts of strange ways. Sometimes they do come in a straightforward dream or vision that is clear and easy to understand. But often the guidance comes in a message that needs to be pondered and meditated upon.

We all have a purpose in this world, and we all have a mission to achieve. A spiritual destiny.

When you discover that destiny, your passion will ignite and your life will become a joy and a grand adventure. You will face your problems with courage and a resolve to overcome them, whatever it takes. You will also have the confidence that you are not alone. There is great love and support for you in the unseen realms of Spirit.

A Vision Quest is a great way to bring that into your life and keep it strong.

El Yunque Vision Quest Oct 4, 2012

76 Days To Go: Muladhara and the Medicine of Fear

I’m sure most of you have heard about the chakras and their significance for the subtle body. In Tantra, the chakras play an important role since it is through their circling form -or vortexes- that the Kundalini -or vital energy of Life- flows through.

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Described as being aligned in an ascending column from the base of the spine to the top of the head, the chakras are thought to vitalize the physical body and be associated with interactions of a physical, emotional and mental nature. Their function is to spin and draw in this energy to keep the spiritual, mental, emotional and physical health of the body in balance.

This one is important: They are said by some to reflect how the unified consciousness of humanity (the immortal human being or the soul), is divided to manage different aspects of earthly life (body/instinct/vital energy/deeper emotions/communication/having an overview of life/contact to God).

I’m also sure a heavier explanation of the chakras and their significance according to ancient tantric scriptures will make some of you loose track almost at the beginning concepts. In 100 Layers From God we want to speak candidly while breaking down the concepts in a basic form for everybody to digest them with ease.

What does each chakra stand for? Addressing symptoms of balance and imbalance. What to do to clear the areas of life (LAYERS) related to each one of them?

Bearing our promise, we begin speaking about Muladhara, Root, or Earth Chakra.

Of red color, it is located at the base of the spine and it deals with survival. If balanced, you feel grounded, stable and secure. You feel present in the here and now. Connected to your physical body and welcome in all situations.

LAYER: It is said that Muladhara is blocked by FEAR. If fearful or nervous, is probably under-active. If over-active, you may be very materialistic and greedy. You’re probably obsessed with being secure and resist change.

Throughout the course of these 24 days we have spoken about fear quite a few times… How about embracing fear as an opportunity? As medicine? What are you most afraid of? Let your fears become clear to you, and it will be clear how they confront your sense of survival. The answers to restore balance will be presented upon you.

An Aries Woman peeling layers… Medicine of Fear
Is utterly interesting how fear has been manifesting itself lately in all realms of Life: About my relationship with nature, my zodiac sign comes from fire, therefore, water as my opposite is a part of my medicine of fear.

The tribes have been gathering. This time was the Autumn Equinox and a Kirtan was held at night at the beach, after which, I decided to go into the sea. The waters were relatively mild, so I was confident to dive in but only up to my neck. Who would’ve said a wave with so much intensity would come? It hit me hard, almost bearing me naked, shooting air bubbles from my mouth and nose. Such a strong current was keeping me under water for almost an eternity, subjectively. For an instance I feared for my life.
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77 days to go: Lucky 7’s

I awoke at 7am this morning.

Guided 7 souls on a quest into the rainforest.

We cleared, balanced and opened the 7 primary chakras.

Remained in the jungle until well past 7pm

My point?

It’s 12:07 now and I’m tired.

Too tired to write a proper blog.

There’s a saying in Mexico that I  will use, even though I’m in Puerto Rico:



77 Days to go:

Good Luck


God Bless!

78 Days To Go: Last Part of Summer Solstice

In addressing today’s blog, let’s go back to the reason why I began sharing this diary, shall we? Summer Solstice is the direct reflection of Winter Solstice. The longest day in relation to the shortest day in our hemisphere (Northern). The day that marks the beginning of the descendant soul, from its brightest and luminous expression towards an inward expression, just before a new dawn.

For the Autumn Equinox, the question was “what action can you take that sends a signal that you’re moving past fear?

I didn’t know exactly if by being in the desert I was moving past my fears. It was by going back home and finding myself immersed again in daily life that I would find out how much I was changed and couldn’t grasp the old dynamics. Didn’t know who I was anymore. How was I going to make a living? How much sediment was removed from my ego reference? All I could perceive was muddy inner waters.

The practice of Kundalini Yoga goes deep, transforming, shaking the very core of who we are. A practice that must be approached wisely and with guidance since the Kundalini energy if awakened without us being ready for it, can translate into a very difficult path, with an extreme and intense current of information coming through, signifying trauma for our mental, physical, spiritual, or emotional health.

What I did know was that by being there, something extraordinary was happening, not only in my personal experience, but in the collective experience -a collective psyche projecting prayers and intentions globally. The portal opened in such a powerful astronomical event was enhanced in New Mexico by having the almost 2,000 souls practicing White Tantric Yoga® as taught and guided by the same Yogi Bhajan, Mahan Tantric. An extraordinary practice based in sacred geometry in which practitioners interact with themselves, their partners, and the group. An entire process that allows a tremendous amount of inner work in a short time.
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79 days to go: Aquí y Ahora

  Here and Now  

“Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery,
today is a gift from God,
which is why we call it
the present.”

Bil Keane

Have you ever found yourself in a situation or place that you’ve always wanted to be? Or perhaps with a certain thing that you’ve always wanted, only to find that it wasn’t as great as you imagined it would be?

Why is that?

Let’s back up a little to take a look.

First of all, why do we look forward to things at all?

It is usually because we are not all that thrilled with how things are going in the present moment.

Think about it.

Do you look forward to, and wish for things when you are having an awesome time and loving life in the moment?


You are enjoying the moment.

If anything, you may wish it never ends.

So you can see how we look forward to something better when we are not happy – or not fully present –  in the moment.

But WHY are we not happy in the moment?

This is a common human condition that has inspired many spiritual discourses. And there may not be one single – or simple – answer for all.

I would venture to say that the reason many are not happy in the moment, is due to all of the things we carry around with us. Negative thoughts and feelings that we hold onto in our bodies (stress), our hearts (pain & fear) and our mind (disappointment and regret). Of course the list goes on to include sadness, anger, guilt, shame, etc. Things that build up over a lifetime, most of us carry with us without even realizing. These are the infamous “100 layers”.

Most of us have so many layers that weigh so heavily upon our consciousness, that if we are not constantly distracted by entertainment and other stimulation, then those negative thoughts and feelings creep into our awareness. And they are not pretty.

It can show up as fear, sadness, confusion, anger, depression or a myriad of other conditions. It can also be projected upon others, such as our family, our workplace and all of our relationships.

You can see then, why we are not so thrilled about being present (in the moment) to such unpleasant and uncomfortable thoughts and feelings.

The traditional solution to such states of unhappiness is a wish or desire to change ones situation in life. Get a new job, a new house, a new car, a new spouse and/or move to a new place.

Money is the big answer most people seek to solve their problems. Certainly, more money can provide plenty of entertainment and a great deal of distraction, as can a new home or car. A new love can be the best of all!

As I write this, I feel that it is important for me to state that I am not immune to, or above this very common condition. There are many times that I wallow in the muck of my layers as much (or more) than everyone else.

That brings us back to the point we began with: Attaining a goal, dream or desire, only to find that it was not the solution you had hoped for. After the novelty and excitement wear off, you find that you still have the same fears, doubts, sadness and pain that you had before.

So what is one to do then?

If a new job, home & car won’t fix it. More money won’t fix it. Even new/more love won’t make things better, then what in the world can we do to get some relief?

An answer can be found, among other places, in the ancient teachings of Tantra, where we are told that the answer is to become present to the moment, and all that exists within us and without us.

Central to the teachings of Tantra, is the philosophy of complete and total acceptance of all that is. It is a knowing that there is a reason and a purpose for everything in all of existence. Only if you accept something and stop resisting it, can you discover what that reason and purpose may be, and gain the priceless gifts (or presents) that they hold.

What does that look like for you and I? 

It means that we can stop running from our pain and fears. Stop trying to avoid the uncomfortable thoughts and feelings that lurk in the dark corners of our heart, and let them be. Let them come out and express themselves.

It is not an easy path, but it is a way to be free from the constant yearning for something else. Something better.

If we can reach that place of acceptance of all we hold and all we are, then perhaps we can find that everything we ever want or need exists right here and now, in this moment.

All of our wildest dreams have already come true.

Aquí y Ahora

80 Days To Go: Continuation of a Summer Solstice Diary

About the Yoga of Awareness… Kundalini Yoga
I will address myself to this explanation as someone who just started her path as a practitioner, not a teacher of Kundalini Yoga – yet. This is a comprehensive technology designed to give a “hands on” experience of the highest consciousness in all of us. A method by which those who practice it could achieve their sacred purpose of life. A dynamic, powerful tool for expanding awareness. A universal non-denominational practice.

Summer Solstice Sadhana Celebration

Why was it so important to be a part of this gathering? Eight years as a hatha yoga practitioner, before June 2012, I only practiced Kundalini Yoga five times, but that was all it took. Eternally grateful to the friend who introduced me into Yogi Bhajan’s spiritual teachings, she spoke to me about this global celebration CARRYING US INTO THE AQUARIAN AGE, and that was it.

A celebration of love, ancient yogic wisdom, and deep spirituality, where we were to immerse ourselves in all areas of daily life including morning sadhana, yogic diet, Kundalini Yoga and meditation, White Tantric Yoga, seva, and kirtan held in a sacred mountain of 7,000 feet of altitude, that used to be a land of the Hopi Nation in the Jemez Mountains in New Mexico.

A little History of Guru Ram Das Puri, The Mountain
For a hundred thousand years, huge spiritual gatherings took place over a vast territory stretching from what is now New Mexico, south to Mexico, and east to Missouri. Tribal and religious leaders, wise women, and warriors traveled from far far away to attend the gatherings. They all shared the belief that the spark of Spirit lives in everyone, and that by coming together, the Unified Supreme Spirit could be made to manifest more clearly. These spiritual gatherings took place once every 108 years. However, the last such meeting had occurred more than 2,000 years ago, when a shift took place: it was determined that the forces of discord—in the form of disharmony and disrespect for nature—were gaining power at such a tremendous rate that the Unified Supreme Spirit needed to be protected. The Hopi people were chosen to be the keepers of the Unified Supreme Spirit and because of this, they became a very mystical nation. The Hopis knew from their ancestors that just before the forces of discord reached their full power, a white-clad warrior, would manifest himself and he was destined to acquire that territory as to activate its healing destiny as a sacred mountain protecting its Unified Supreme Spirit, that white-clad warrior was determined to be Yogi Bhajan.

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81 Days To Go: Divine Feminine… Alignments

In my previous blog, I began sharing a diary of Summer Solstice. Then the weekend came with a powerful Full Moon and a conversation that made me write today about the Divine Feminine and the Earth alignments with the Astral Plane. After this one, I will get back to the mountain of Ram Das Puri.

Dawning days. A harvest “lunation” for alchemical evolution. With feminine energy bathing all around. 2012, the birth year for a new planet. I remember when I used to think about this year of change and alignment, that it was just a metaphor. It was Christmas Eve in 2010 when a sudden realization came with an earth tremor strong and long enough to make everything dance around with vibrational rhythm. “This is already happening, is not about the future anymore”, I said to myself.

2012 then began and we are living such alignments already.

This harvest Full Moon came with an interesting convergence of energies among which we also found a source of nourishment and support, ruling fertility, food, and the cycle of life, upholding and anchoring a strong, feminine presence in this configuration of change and evolution that we are unfolding together. Before Summer Solstice, the Earth saw a Solar Eclipse, with the feminine energy of the Moon coming in the way of the male energy of the Sun, a Lunar Eclipse with the Earth, followed by Venus transiting the Sun shining her goddess rays onto the planet amplified with the magnetization of the Sun, like holding a film with a big projector spotlight behind it.

We’re talking about a lot of feminine energy coming into planet Earth. In light of balance, this female energy influx is happening to balance out centuries of excess male energy on the planet. With all these changes going on, preparing us for the next level of consciousness, the balance is returning to the planet in the form of the divine feminine.

Is not a strange thing that many females, on the bright side, may be getting pregnant with ease, or may be confronting conditions related to their feminine systems, such as cystitis, or heavy menstrual cramps. That which is not aligned with this new balance may face changes -within and without- principally during the portals given by the Sun during the Solstices and Equinoxes, and the Full Moons, such like the one on Saturday night, an Aries Moon charged with action about the things we take for granted and from now on is important to determine if they serve for the highest good of all.

Going back to Solstices… Word is that there was a direct alignment between Summer Solstice with the Winter Solstice. The June 21st as a direct precursor to the December 21st one. Everything is intertwined, absolutely everything. One of the questions I was faced with this Saturday night for the Aries Full Moon, is the one question I began to answer when I decided to go to a sacred place in the mountains of New Mexico called Ram Das Puri… “What action can I take to help me to  move past fear?”

To be continued…

Inspired by articles from our friends from MysticMamma and Wake Up World.

82 days to go: Illusion of Maya & Jellyfish

Previously on 100 layers blog: Peter was trying to find divine purpose in EVERYTHING – including getting stung by a jellyfish.

The spiritual masters of Tantra (as well as many other traditions) have been telling us for thousands of years that there is a greater reality that exists beyond this physical world that we know as home. That is the spirit world. It is where we come from and where we go to after the body dies. It is said that the spirit realm is the TRUE reality and the physical world that we can experience with out bodily senses is merely an illusion that serves as a training ground for our spirits’ journey in this body. In Tantra this is known as Maya.

When we are born into this world, our spirit has no real self-awareness of its’ true nature or why it’s here. We are given spirit guides (or guardian angels) who try to help us from beyond the veil, but all the beings in that realm (including Creator) can only help us if we are open to such help.

One of the ways that help can arrive is guidance and direction in the form of “signs”.  These are messages specifically for us. Or we can also be given gifts of healing, energy, strength, trust, faith  or patience through a wide variety of means, if we are open to it.

This goes back to the message of yesterday’s blog and previous ones, that there is a reason and a purpose for EVERYTHING that happens in your life. And that purpose is ALWAYS for the highest good for everyone.

When something interesting or unusual or powerful happens to you, that is something to pay special attention to. Like getting stung by a jellyfish – 3 nights in a row!

You know how you can interpret symbols in a dream you might have, as a message from your subconscious mind? In the same way, you can interpret the things that happen to yourself in the “real” waking world, just as if you were interpreting a dream. In fact, the masters say that the dream world is linked more closely to the spirit world, and hence is more “real” than the waking world.

There are many ways to interpret symbols. One way is to look in a dream interpretation book(or the internet) for commonly understood symbols and what they can mean. Keep looking until you find something that resonates with you. or you can meditate on the symbol, paying special attention to what it means to you, and how it makes you feel. If all else fails, you can make up a meaning out of thin air. It is really impossible to get it “wrong” since this is YOUR journey and your path.

Another way to understand gifts is to look at the spiritual energy of the messenger. All living beings have a spiritual energy that carries special gifts and messages. These are known as animal totems.

This is what I looked at to try to understand what was going on with getting stung by a sea creature.

As I meditated and looked at pictures, I realized that there is no other inhabitant of the oceans that more resembles a spirit being than a jellyfish.


Then a little research on jellyfish medicine revealed something very interesting. Not from an animal totem guide, but a scientific article showed that a certain type of jellyfish my hold the key to anti-aging, cellular regeneration and even physical immortality! Check it out.

So with just a little meditation and research, I discovered that an experience I had that was very painful and frightening, could have actually been a great gift from spirit.

Here is the funny thing, that is also just a little bit spooky, but it is the Gods’ honest truth.  After I returned home after the 2nd sting, but before I had learned about the anti-aging properties, I passed the bathroom mirror as I was getting into the shower. Something made me pause and look twice at myself. I was struck by how young I looked, for being almost 50.


Or Divine Providence?

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